Yesterday was an emotional rollercoaster.
It started with workplace tension that had been brewing for months. Long story short, what began as ten people raising concerns — nine of them even going to leadership in person — finally reached the point where we demanded action. Somewhere in the mess of it all, over the last six months, I was unofficially labeled by “the other side” as the coup leader. That couldn’t be further from the truth.
Yesterday, that label turned into a public attack on Facebook. It wasn’t about my professional work, but my personal life. And, as often happens in situations like this, others felt the need to pile on.
The Emotional Whiplash
Did it bother me? Absolutely.
I got angry. I cried. Then I got angry again.
But here’s the thing — even in those moments, God was at work. What the enemy intended to use for harm, God was already turning for my good.
In the middle of my emotions, I made a life-altering decision. I decided to follow through on something I had been thinking about for a while — resigning from my full-time paramedic position. I walked into our scheduling system and removed my name from all remaining shifts.
It wasn’t even two minutes later that my inbox pinged.
There it was — an email from a woman I had been working with earlier this year to develop a mandated two-day training. We’d been making progress back in the spring until contract negotiations fell apart. Months had passed with no movement, so I assumed the opportunity was gone.
Her email?
Everything was finalized. She wanted to know how quickly we could move forward.
God’s Timing Is Perfect
In that moment, God confirmed something I’ve said and believed for a long time:
God can’t give you your next blessing if you’re still holding on to what He’s asking you to release.
As soon as I let go, the very thing I’d been praying for opened up. That training will allow me to replace my monthly full-time income with just two sessions — giving me more time for my speaking, consulting, coaching, and, most importantly, more time with my girls doing what I love with the people I love.
A Biblical Reminder
As I processed what happened, a story from John 8 came to mind — when people brought accusations and Jesus responded with wisdom instead of retaliation. In my mind, those Facebook commenters were like the crowd in that story, throwing stones.
I’ve learned to document things — words, actions, and patterns — in my online journals. When people show me their true colors, I don’t try to repaint them. I could have chosen to “air dirty laundry” in response, but God reminded me that He has it handled. My job is to obey and keep moving forward.
Choosing Who Gets My Energy
Today, with my rational brain in control instead of yesterday’s emotional one, I can see clearly. I’m not surprised by the people who joined in on the bashing — their behavior was predictable. But I am deeply grateful for the two people who stood up for me. They’re exactly the kind of people I want in my life.
I once heard this advice: “Don’t give time to the words of people you wouldn’t trade lives with.”
Yesterday proved that true. There isn’t a single person who commented that I’d switch places with — so after writing this, I won’t spend another moment on their words.
The Weight Lifted
When I clocked out at 6 a.m., it felt like a heaviness lifted from my chest. By 7 a.m., as I sat down to type this, I felt free — almost like being released from a prison sentence. My head was clear. My heart was light. Hope had been reignited.
Stepping Into Purpose
Yesterday hurt, yes. But it also propelled me into my next chapter. I’m stepping forward into the path God has laid before me — one that aligns with my divine purpose. I believe this is only the beginning of the blessings He has in store now that I’ve fully let go of what was holding me back.
To anyone walking through a season of false accusations, public shaming, or betrayal — know this: God sees. God knows. And when you let Him, He can turn the very thing meant to break you into the stepping stone toward your next blessing.